Hi Anne, my first time here. Thanks for your subscription to my newsletter. I just read this post and found myself nodding. What is it with Target, eh? I found myself in a similar situation, strolling through Target with grief and angst. It irked me when I saw families shopping for seasonal items. The celebratory mood irritated me. There just isn't a public space in our society that can hold our grief, is there? And the sobbing/tearing up while driving--oh yes! I've done that so many times that I've lost count.
I'm so very sorry to read about your husband and the situation you are in. I see that you are trying your best to stay in the present moment, which can be the hardest thing. Sending you lots of hugs!
My heart breaks for you and for your husband. I can't even begin to imagine what it's like to know what's coming and to deal with it every day. Let that little girl cry when she needs to - and I'm glad your sister was there to give you time for a break and a small place to breathe.
thank you. We were discussing sudden death versus long, drawn out death with our therapist. He says there are pros and cons to both. A topic for a post, I imagine. . .
I am learning, slowly, that sharing grief can help ease the burden. Even though we are all grieving different things, there are fundamental truths that are universal. Thank you for joining me on my journey. I am also glad to be joining you in yours.
I’m so glad that you’re sharing and that it is easing the burden. In sharing you’re making me feel more connected to you and my own grief. It is interesting how universal grief is. I look forward to us writing, reading and walking together 💚
I can relate so much to this. The inner child and the parent voice. I’ve been getting to know mine quite a lot. I used to be able to see her like a little girl sat on a bench with hair all scraggy, hanging down - not a scrap of self-worth. Not even a tiny bit. She taught me so much about how she really felt. And sometimes I couldn’t help but shut her out (and would get ill). What a journey.
Thank you for sharing these tender moments. I'm sorry for your impending loss. Anticipatory grief is unimaginable, yet I think we all carry it inside of us, whether we want to admit it or not. I, too, am familiar with the great car cries, I call them. Sometimes it's the best place for a breakdown. Sending heartfelt sympathies. 💗
Glad to know another fellow car crier. Definitely the best place for a breakdown. When you have an audience, they tend to get freaked out. Thank you for your words.
Hi Anne, my first time here. Thanks for your subscription to my newsletter. I just read this post and found myself nodding. What is it with Target, eh? I found myself in a similar situation, strolling through Target with grief and angst. It irked me when I saw families shopping for seasonal items. The celebratory mood irritated me. There just isn't a public space in our society that can hold our grief, is there? And the sobbing/tearing up while driving--oh yes! I've done that so many times that I've lost count.
I'm so very sorry to read about your husband and the situation you are in. I see that you are trying your best to stay in the present moment, which can be the hardest thing. Sending you lots of hugs!
I'm glad you are here. Sharing our experiences makes me feel a little less alone.
Wow how real and raw. I can't even imagine your pain, but I hope the writing helps. It's beautiful.
Sending you kind wishes from across the Pond. Thank you for sharing your little girl and for caring for her x
Thank you. I appreciate your support.
My heart breaks for you and for your husband. I can't even begin to imagine what it's like to know what's coming and to deal with it every day. Let that little girl cry when she needs to - and I'm glad your sister was there to give you time for a break and a small place to breathe.
thank you. We were discussing sudden death versus long, drawn out death with our therapist. He says there are pros and cons to both. A topic for a post, I imagine. . .
You have described grief so well talking about the inner child, when those sobs escape it is indeed like it’s coming from someone else…
I also love the mention of going to Target to feel like a normal person, grief makes you feel like an alien in a world where you once belonged.
The flip flops evoking such grief, it’s bizarre how just an inanimate object can evoke such emotion.
Beautifully written, I look forward to reading more.
Sending so much love in your grieving journey 💚
Thank you, @Sheila. I continue to be amazed at what triggers grief. Definitely not linear. I appreciate your kind words.
I’m sorry you have to grieve but I appreciate you sharing your journey 💚 I too find grief, a different grief, in the strangest of places.
I am learning, slowly, that sharing grief can help ease the burden. Even though we are all grieving different things, there are fundamental truths that are universal. Thank you for joining me on my journey. I am also glad to be joining you in yours.
I’m so glad that you’re sharing and that it is easing the burden. In sharing you’re making me feel more connected to you and my own grief. It is interesting how universal grief is. I look forward to us writing, reading and walking together 💚
I can relate so much to this. The inner child and the parent voice. I’ve been getting to know mine quite a lot. I used to be able to see her like a little girl sat on a bench with hair all scraggy, hanging down - not a scrap of self-worth. Not even a tiny bit. She taught me so much about how she really felt. And sometimes I couldn’t help but shut her out (and would get ill). What a journey.
What a journey, indeed.
I thought you’d like this one Amber ☺️
I get this. The ebb and flow of the grief. Holding it in. So very hard. Love to you.
Thank you for sharing these tender moments. I'm sorry for your impending loss. Anticipatory grief is unimaginable, yet I think we all carry it inside of us, whether we want to admit it or not. I, too, am familiar with the great car cries, I call them. Sometimes it's the best place for a breakdown. Sending heartfelt sympathies. 💗
Glad to know another fellow car crier. Definitely the best place for a breakdown. When you have an audience, they tend to get freaked out. Thank you for your words.